I ran out of Adderall right after I moved here. I've been reading a lot of posts lately on other sites with people griping about people who gripe about "What's Wrong With Costa Rica". Weenies. Right now, as far as I am concerned, what's wrong with Costa Rica is that this frigging berg doesn't sell Adderall. What the Hell is wrong with these people? I told a doctor here that I took Adderall in the states and he, like two other docs I've seen here, hands me a 'scrip for Concerta and goes on and on about how it's the best thing since sliced bread. It's not. At least it's not for me. I've eaten bags of Skittles with more punch than Concerta. Maybe, if you have a mild case of ADD, it might work. For me, at it's highest dose, I am about as focused as a squirrel in a pinball machine. After a couple of months of Concerta, I gave up and moved on to coffee. At 6 - 8 cups a day, my heart was racing, I was dopey, craving sweets and my impulse control and irritability were off the charts. I stopped the coffee about two weeks ago. I've since had cluster migraines day in and day out. I've decided to see if I can get it under control by just ditching sugar, caffeine and a few other food additives that I know make me crazier than I need to be. I'm also trying to put myself on a pretty rigid schedule. Lack of choices is a good thing for someone like me. So, starting this week, I'm going to try to post more regularly and I'm going to throw out the cookies in the pantry and the M&Ms I have stashed in the freezer. I'm going to eat more fruits and vegetables and little or no processed crap. I'm going to see if I can get this stuff under control using a more sensible, natural approach. If I haven't stabbed myself with a carrot by the end of the week, I'll consider adding in some meditation...if I can sit still for that long. If none of this works, I'm gonna scrape up a couple hundred dollars and get my old, ethically challenged shrink in Miami to mail me some Adderall so I can get through the holidays without driving myself and everyone around me stark raving bonkers.
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